A foreign land?

Posted : 10 Jul, 2012 09:37 AM

My dreams and desires were based on the limited information I had. So when they fell apart and crumbled at my feet, I panicked. My identity was wrapped up in them was now gone, along the false sense of security clouding my vision.



I was in a land I knew not, without a map or compass. I knew nothing of the terrain, what was to the East or West, North or South. I was completely at the mercy of Almighty God. I had wanted to do things my way, I wanted my will to be His, instead of His will mine. There was much wailing and gnashing of teeth, Many days of "Why God why?" there was no understanding... just flesh.



Now that I have stopped to look around me and decided to submit unto Almighty God, He is teaching me so much, with the promise of Jeremiah 29:11 along with the sobriety of 1Peter 4.

I realize now He is honoring the prayers of my youth, to know Him by name, to be my reality, not just a far away notion or an account in the Bible. I had not known to know Him by name meant I would go through situations where he could reveal His many characteristics. I think of Abraham, the first time we know God as Jehovah Jireh was when he provided a ram in the bush to take the place of Issac. But oh how I desired intimacy with Him. Many feel God's power, seen the work of his hands but have yet to meet with Him.



In this foreign land I have seen things within myself that I had not known were there and He's taking it out. He's stripping my flesh and yes it is painful as it sounds but He is also a restorer the Balm of Gilead and is able to bind up my wounds. Even my family was and sometimes is part and parcel of the process He's using, having been ostracized, ridiculed, abused. I have been angry, bitter, unforgiving, vengeful, intimidated, fearful, suicidal but oh for the love of my Savior who has taken away all that was ugly and made it into something beautiful. God is even restoring my family.



I have seen the promise but I am going through the process; the will of God for my life. Do I struggle? Constantly. Will I die? No, for God has given me the strength and fortitude through the blood of His Son to endure. I will suffer successfully. Who is like unto You Daddy? There is NONE, give Him all the honor and glory!



As I learn to trust Him so too do not be afraid of the foreign lands, of coming out of your comfort zones. If you truly desire to know Him for who He is.



God bless.

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