Author	Thread: Please pray for me
Admin	Please pray for me Posted : 1 Nov, 2012 07:14 PM For months now I been prayin for an earthly father figure. I been prayin for one as well I never had a good one. I know GOD is my Heavenly Father and that is wonderful. But I need to be able to see a dad's smile or see him shrug ya know just a dad that I can actually physically see in front of me. Can't see GOD like that. Can't hear Him either. I mean like to have a dad where if I say hi he says hi and asks how I am. I say hi to GOD and there is just silence. I don't mean like where it feels as if prayers are just reachin the ceiling. I know GOD hears me. I know GOD talks to me through His Word and through people. But I can't actually have a conversation with Him like I can a human being. That just doesn't happen. So I wanted a dad that could do that to. This is gonna sound silly but inside of me is a little girl that just keeps begging for attention and for love that she can actually physically see in front of her. There's a girl inside me who says "please put me in dresses. Please put bows in my hair. Please gimme candy. Please hold my hand. Please tell me stories. Please tuck me in and scare away the monsters under the bed and in the closet even though there not real. Please hold and hug me all the time. Please wipe away my tears. Please just be there for me. Please buy me presents." Well I believe GOD has shut the door permanently on the earthly father figure thing. All those needs I got just ain't gonna get fulfilled. It's just not gonna happen and I need to accept it. So please pray that GOD help me accept this and remove my needs. I don't want em anymore. I don't wanna feel needy at all anymore. This is why I used to not show emotion and not let anything get to me and get drunk. So that I wouldn't feel this constant need anymore. I know drunkeness won't solve it but at least I wouldn't feel anything for a little while. So please pray that GOD take these feelings away cause I just can't deal with em without someone to fulfill em I just can't do it. Boy this is an irony. I was brought up to not feel anything and not show any emotion at all ever. I just wish it was ok for me to feel and need these things and have an earthly father there to fulfill em. But that won't happen ever and I need to accept that. It's just the way it is. Please pray for me about all this.... Post Reply
Philipian View Profile History	Please pray for me Posted : 26 Nov, 2012 04:15 AM Dear Jenny, I will advise you to intensify more in prayer and in the study of the word. I can understand as there is nothing wrong with you seeking a father figure. Every little girl had the dream to be loved by a father. They desire and dream of a father who make them great and who is like a little god to them. But unfortunately things do happen and some of this dreams are cut short and thrown away and we grow up not having those things we deeply desired. To some as they grow, they are able to overcome that desire and make do with whatever comes across them and forget such fantasies.. But some others are not as fortunate as that, as such rhapsody of dreams lingers on in them and refuses to die. They constantly continue to remember the dreams they never see come true and the more they remember, the harder and more painful it gets to them and in a way to keep alive the dreams, the more again they desire and this desires birth some desperacy in them to go look for this dream they are bent on having! It is at this juncture we must be careful in our quest. Some have sought for this and had through it veered of and made a shipwreck of their souls (1Tim 1:19). Some had broken themselves over and over again. And still have not been able to get this love and affection of a father they crave. Some had unwittingly fallen prey to vultures who had exploited them and taken advantage of them. It leads to the fact that they keep moving from one step farther and farther from home, each time the go on looking for more. As believers, what we can do is look into the word of god and learn to believe it. True you don't see god but he had been ever constant and faithful to you. Your walk with Him is not physical, so most likely you will never see him physically. Your walk is spiritual. Your earthly father is physical so you see him. But God is not PHYSICAL but SPIRITUAL....You must learn to trust and believe him for what he said in his words. Take it. like it. Accept it and Praise him for it. You will love it more than anything else. Post Reply