Author	Thread: Scared about going back to school.
Admin	Scared about going back to school. Posted : 4 Aug, 2011 12:50 PM Hi all. I am a displaced worker. There is grant money for me to go back to school full time. I want it very badly. I am also very uneasy about it. I am 51 years old and though I have an Associates degree that was a long time ago and my memory isn't what it used to be. I also tend towards deep depression and am very apprehensive about having to drop out and waste the grant money. I tried last year and this past winter to go and let my depression and poor self esteem get the better of me. I know all those things are not of God but what if He is telling me I am not capable of this. I wasn't sure the state grant would pay for these classes as I have had adult ed in some of them which I am in right now (not doing too bad at either :).So I prayed to God and said I was putting it in His hands and that if they said they would not pay then I would take that as a sign that I am not supposed to go. To be honest I was also thinking that would be a way to "save face" if the money didn't come through so people wouldn't think I was chickening out. But what if God is doing this to teach me a lesson...a very sad heartbreaking lesson...that I am not supposed to try for things I can't attain. Would He do that? I already have very poor self-esteem issues because of my upbringing and past failures. However today I talked with my worker and she said they would pay I just need to come in and we will dot the i's and cross the t's. So was that a YES from God? I have this very shaky feeling sort of like butterflies in my gut, and across my chest. In love butterflies are the best but the one that are of the anxiety variety are not so much! Thank you for listening and God bless. Teri Post Reply
View Profile History	Scared about going back to school. Posted : 5 Aug, 2011 06:17 PM Teri, I will keep you in my prayers. Trust in the Lord, keep praying and see where He leads you. God bless you. Post Reply
bcpianogal View Profile History	Scared about going back to school. Posted : 11 Aug, 2011 03:58 PM Teri, I just want to tell you this, and I hope you'll be encouraged by it: all of the faculty members at the college where I teach just LOVE our "non-traditional" students! They bring maturity, experience, a different perspective, and often a different type of humor into our classes. I know that most of us are more than willing to spend extra time working with those students if they need it, and we are their biggest supporters! I pray that the faculty at the school you attend will be as supportive. Best of luck! Post Reply
View Profile History	Scared about going back to school. Posted : 26 Aug, 2011 07:00 PM Teri, I'm also a displaced worker...In the last 6 years, I went through a terrible divorce, lost my job, had no child support, and lost my home that we lived in for 10 years (my kids grew up there)...I too also have an Associates Degree from 1987...feeling like I have no self esteem and like a complete failure, I decided this was the bottom and there was only one way to go and that was up. I started college for the second time this last July...I got grant money too...this is my past and not my future...Sister WE CAN DO IT!! God is for us...He wants a better life for us, so believe in yourself, constantly pray and believe HE will see you through it!! I have 6 credits already, so I'm going until I'm done!! I'm also working full-time and there is only one way I'll make it and that is WITH GOD!! I hope this encourages you!! Post Reply