I am not sure where i should have placed this story...
I am this lady who never knew what a father's love is like,and i can't say much about my mum...but all in all i give God praise.
It all started when i was just a small girl,i grew up with a drunkard for a father,he got saved when i was 6yrs old,this time my parents had separated and when dad got saved,they went back together....but that never changed the relationship between me and dad...
He would shout at me when i call to him,or go to him for any kind of help.And i grew up so scared of him,as i grew up my fear turned out to hatred slowly by slowly...i knew this was wrong and i started changing and accepting that my dad was like that,but whenever i saw how well he bonded with my siblings,i always hurt and felt the hatred again...i grew up scared of all men,boys or otherwise...i was through with my high school,and somehow i never got any parental support again...this goes to as little as asking for money to buy sanitary towels...my mum who was my closest,or atleast the person i could talk to,would scream and shout at me whenever i would ask for money for the sanitary towels,saying i was prying on her savings...
Anyway i looked for a job and started working,but one fateful evening as i went home i got raped by a cab driver of the car i had boarded...naive and scared as i was,i went home to my room,lied to mum i fell off a motorbike as i had blood stains and was walking in a funny manner...i went to my room and no one cared to know more,i cried a lot and resented men even the more....i couldnt date or interact with men...a friend in church was concerned about my sudden change in behaviour(i isolated myself),i slowly opened up to her,and she took me for cancelling....and after about 5yrs i want to try dating,i have with time overcome my fears....and i thank God for his guidance in my life especially during this particular incidence....
The same friend introduced me to this site,and although my few days here have not been all that pleasant,i realised i am much stronger....i wrote this to help someone in the same situation,or who ever went through such....
God works in incredible ways,before i couldnt talk openly about this and i wanted little to do with men...but today its different,and i am here trusting in God to find a wonderful man,whom God has chosen for me...as i pray over it and pray for all of you to find what you seek...
I can not imagine the pain you experienced through this. I pray and trust God will bring a man who can love and protect you that you will be complete in your healing.
None of us are free form the effects of sin upon our world and their is none who have not been violated in some way.
We are all equal in our need for the redeemer to heal and cleanse us from our effects of sin upon this world and others influence of sin upon our lives.
