Author	Thread: HI
Newlife2011 View Profile History	HI Posted : 11 Nov, 2010 04:58 AM I was born in PR; but I came to the states when I was 4 months old and I grew up in the Bronx; They call us Neuyouricans..LOL I have 3 adult children and a 13 year old daugther (she lives with me). I married the man of my life who I thought would never hurt or abandon me for other pleasures in life. My dreams of growing old with him in a little cabin house by the lake is gone. Everyone tells me how strong I am that I haven't fallen apart, though I have cried many tears in my 31 years married to him. I do not remember a arm around my shoulder's when I cried or him bringing me to his chest and let me pour my heart out. I don't remember words, soft words of encouragement or "I understand how you feel"- I remember silence and a bothered disinterested look each time. Yet I saw the same man lovingly listen to the women in church as they cried with their sorrows. I remember "I am sorry's" only because he got caught - only to do it again - each time I took him back (for 31 years I did this). I have been strong but often I think what happened? I know that it takes two for everything in agreement. I was the only one in agreement and I think I held on for so long because I didn't want to be a breaker of a covenant I had made. It has taken an "after divorce care" class to teach me that I put up with more than I had to. Biblically, when my exhusband committed his first act of adultery I was a free woman - didn't know this. Also, learned that forgiveness means to let go...but it doesn't mean I should live with this for the rest of my life. That respect is something I should have never had to ask or beg for; it should be given from the heart freely if you truly love someone. Post Reply
wesmith View Profile History	HI Posted : 15 Nov, 2010 06:10 AM Hi Newlife, Welcome! I am new here too!!! I don't have the answers, but I can tell you that someone I know ( bet you know Him too!!) does... Hopefully we all can come here and meet other Godly Christians that can help and encourage us along as we heal from what Satan has done to us in his attempt convince us that God doesn't love us or can't use us for His good. Of course we know that God is able and will. I pray God's blessings and peace for your life. William Post Reply