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(I AM SECOND) My Testimony
Posted : 23 Feb, 2013 08:55 PM
First off, what I'm about to share with you has not been me at all. It's all God and God in me. To Him be the glory!
Second, I can't spell and I don't care right now, lol. I just felt led to share my testimony.
Third, I hope you like to read! :) You won't regret it! God is not a respecter of persons and He will do the same for you!
Hi, my name is child of the One True King... or Brittanie. I grew up in church, from the time I was born til around my middle school years I attended church with my grandma. The people at church all seemed like they were perfect, they had something that I wanted, but I felt like I just didn't fit in. So, in middle school I found my click. The place where I felt "cool" and felt like I fit. It all started with smoking cigarettes, bringing them to school and getting suspended. Then, in high school I started skipping school, getting dropped off and walking in the front door, then walking out the back. They placed me in alternative school because my grades and my actions. That's when I started smoking weed... pills and alcohol were never really my thing but I did them sometimes. My thing was weed. First, it was just experimentation. Then, it was social. It proceeded to become something I thought I needed. First, I would only spend 10, then 20.. then 60, then 120... it was just never enough. I could never seem to fill that emptiness. I stayed in trouble and was a horrible person. In september 2010, I went through a horrible breakup and I was completely broken. I started going to church just to get out of the house... when Jesus began to knock on the door of my heart. The day I got saved, our lesson was about moses on the mountain with God and how his face was glowing after being in His presence. The cool thing was, after I got saved, everyone said my face was glowing. Well, a few months later... I went out with an old friend. I was aware of the kind of things she did, yet I thought I was strong enough to say no. I was faced with the temptation and I literally heard God speaking to me in my head, I felt Him fighting, but I pushed it aside and justified myself. I fell. A few months later, I came back to God. After that, I backslid and turned my back on God many times, then would always come back. Everytime I would backslide, the drugs would get harder, the theft and lies worsend, the attitude and character became more awful and evil. In sept 2011, I was finally fed up. I rededicated my life to God. I was sober for a year... then thought that I was strong enough. I took my eyes off of Jesus (WHICH IS A BIG NO NOOO) So I invited that same friend over, knowing she hadn't changed. I felt God, sort of saying that it wasn't a good idea, yet I again pushed that aside and tried to tell myself it would be fine. For the first while, it was fine. Later that night, I remember sitting on my stairs, crying out, begging her to let me get high. She kept saying no. I finally talked her into it a few days later. I was at my lowest point ever. I came to the point where I didn't care what kind of pill I was doing, if someone asked if I wanted a line, I said yes. I didn't care what I was smoking or doing, if it got me high or drunk, I wanted it. I wanted to be messed up 24/7. Drinking and driving, stealing and lying, didn't care who I hurt. The first thing I would think about when I would wake up each morning is how can I get high today, how can I fulfill myself today and the last thing I would think about when I went to sleep is I can't wait to wake up and do it all over again. That old friend even told me that she couldn't be around me anymore because I was in too deep. The enemy kept telling me that I was happy this way. I knew I was deteriating. God didn't give up on me... One day, around December of 2012, I was sitting in my living room and all of the sudden the spirit of God overwhelmed me and I just fell to my knees and began to cry and beg God for forgiveness. I looked up to Jesus and His arms were open and He said to me "Welcome Home!" I called my mom and told her that I had a bottle of alcohol and a carton of cigarettes and I didn't want them anymore. I completely surrendered to God. The enemy keeps saying what's different about this time, you're just going to fall again. Well, I rebuke that in the name of Jesus Christ!!! In every heart, God has created a cross shaped void that only Jesus can fill. No male, female, amount of money, drug, amount of food or drink.. NOTHING can fill that void but Jesus!!! He has given me wisdom to see these things, to know that I CANNOT do this without Him. I'm completely despite and lost without Him. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK or what they say. I know God has BIG BIG BIG plans for me. By the grace of God and in the name and power of Jesus Christ, I will never be who I used to be. I've been completely changed, chains broken, set free, saved and redeemed. I am a new creature in Christ. (Who the Son sets free, IS FREE INDEED) The enemy has no place, power or authority in my life anymore. I am a child of the living God. The same spirit that rose Jesus from the grave lives inside of me and nothing will every separate me from the love of God. In the past 3 months that I've been back home, God has just shown Himself mightily in my life. I sometimes feel like God loves me more than anyone. How God has taken me... ME! A broken piece of clay and just turned my life completely around. Recently, God has led me into ministry. I started off doing hospital ministry, then street, and now would love to do youth ministry and so much more for Him but for now I'm just praying and seeking God's will because I don't want to do anything that isn't His plan for me.
I wasn't sure if I was making a difference... here are just a few of the things that have happened since God led me into ministry, that are also sort of confirmations from God that I am doing something right...
I was driving to the hospital to read the bible to people and just share Jesus. There was a lady walking up the hill, it was FREEZING outside. I don't pick people up... but I felt led to do so. I tried to push that thought aside but decided to pick her up anyways. She was going to have to walk all the way across town just to catch the transit then get dropped off at urgent care. Wow! God's providential care... I was able to take her to the hospital. She just happened to be a girl on fire for God and she prayed for me and it was just wonderful.
A lady from church messaged me on facebook and said that someone came up to her from work and sad a young lady from Adoration church (Adorationchurch.org) came into her mother's hospital room and shared her testimony.. and how it really touched her.
My mom's friend sarah called and told my mom I had prayed with her, and as soon as she got off the phone with me, someone called and offered to help with the medical bills.
I was walking down a busy street with many shops, handing out flyers for a clothing give away at my church and praying with people. I came up to a man and gave him one, then asked to pray with him. He rejected me... the later on walked back up to me and said (something of the sort) "Mam, God spoke to my heart after you walked off and I was wondering if I could go to church with you?" I called my pastor and we picked him up in the church van.
Like I said, just a few of the amazing things that God is doing in me. Right at this VERY moment God is doing something in my life... something BIG and let me tell ya, the devil doesn't like it at all. he has been trying his hardest to take me out, but he obviously doesn't know how BIG and GREAT my GOD is!!!!!!!
I hope you have been blessed and encouraged. I love you all and I hope you have a blessed day/night in the Lord!
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