I don't know how God will make it happen because I am in a group of myself and what kind of man want to marry a woman like me...so out from the crowd ?
I have been isolated my whole life so I have never learned to think in a group.
My life have been to walk by myself without any love or no one that care for me but since 2000 do I know that God cares.
I wasn't wanted of anyone when I was born as a God's joke on the family that was complete.
My mother was 42 and my father 45 when I was born. My father was an alcoholicer so he wasn't much home as he also was a manager for a big company.
My 5 older sister was adopted as my parents had given up to get their own blood kids but when she was 40 did the hospital knew how to stop her to misscarring and my brother was born.
They had a complete family.
My mother told me that morning I was born was it more stars in the sky than she had ever seen before or later and she said it was like the strs come down and touched her and greeting her for the baby that should be born.
At 2-3 years of age did my sister pushed me out in front of a truck and the truck drover over me and killed me.
That I know because God have told me in August 2000 and now I start to see scars I don't know where they are coming from and my body is total crashed and I am retired of my bad back and all the pain I have in my body ( this is things that show up in older age what have happen in younger days as our skin go thin and other things in the body changes )
In my whole childhood did I asked what was the bright light in my eyes I remembering and that someone like out of metallic hold me very hard when the bright light come to me.
At 8 did I knew that I was here to do something great that will be known around the world and in many books they will write about me.
I was in the church but Jesus was my friend and the one that teached me but God was total different from Jesus and we couldn't see him because he was all over the earth as a spirit flying around in the air that I didn't understood at 8 or else did I remember from been with God before.
I also asked the many people at 8 why God had so many names but I always got the answers of all questions that God's way we don't know and I was frustrated to never get a real answer.
After meeting was I angry at people in my church because they let me walk home by myself in sometimes late evenings.... and they knew how hard I had it at home and in the church should I only smile the whoke time so it was hard to tell how bad it was at home.
At 16 been on a hospital with a little girl I looked after was I sitting in the waiting room alone when I heard a voice in the air talking to me and the voice said I should go in to a girl in same age that was paralized in her legs and couldn't speak.
The voice told me to lay my hand on the girl's head and I felt there was no skull under my hand because her left brain was gone.
But she told me anyway that she had been in a car accident that killed her parents and she was the only survivor.
I walked out from her room and just when I should go and get the little girl I come with did I heard a screaming from a nurse that said over and over it was a miracle and Doctors, nurses come running and turning me around I saw the paralized girl walking out from her room and to us and I left as I was working and I heard how the paralized girl was and speaking.
I forget that event for years......until it happen that my hand made a womans foot with three paralized toes under her foot be soft agains and she could move them out under the foot.
In 2000 come God down as a voice in the air, the same voice as in the hospital and He was talking to me and my 15 years dugther for 2 and half hour and my daugther was saved in that time and joined a church the day after.
In my case God made me to leave my husband and take a flight to USA and walk in USA for 3 and half years between Dec. 2000 and May 2004 so I lived in Virginia when the terrorist attack hit the towers and USA changed to be more worried about all foreigners living in USA.
That's why there will be many men that not even read my profile because I am from another country.
In 2007 was I ordained to Pastor of a church in Florida even if they knew I don't believe that Jesus is God the almighty.
I preach about Jesus but my private life in Jesus Christ is going closer to God.
Jesus is the one between God and man but as I am in my worldly life that I don't like to walk in groups or follow someone else than Jesus ...is it the same here that I have already passed by Jesus and am talking to God by myself.
In my life has it been like that...... I have never talked to co-workers about an important issue...I have always walked to the boss/the head for the company and talked for myself.
God's knew before He created me that I was a little rebel in my heart and He looked at it and smiled and said
" Let her be rebellishand we will see how she manages it in life "
Quote: *In 2007 was I ordained to Pastor of a church in Florida even if they knew I don't believe that Jesus is God the almighty.*
Sorry darlin, you lost me there. Jesus is the one and only God, the alpha and the omega, The Kings of Kings and Lords of Lords, the great I AM. You have alot of interesting religiosity there and an interestingly *spiritual* tale, but if you deny Jesus was and Is God, I can have no fellow ship with you.
I agree with Alex on that one, ma'am. As good as your story was, Jesus is the one and only God, the King of Kings and Lord of Lords and He is the one that has created everything and everyone. If you deny that Jesus is the one and only God, then I feel so sorry for you and I pray that you learn the truth someday.
I must admit, I have several alarm bells going off from what you've written. I wish you well in your search, but this is a Christian site, and as such, we are all focused on Christ.
For example, you said
"I preach about Jesus but my private life in Jesus Christ is going closer to God."
and
"Jesus is the one between God and man but as I am in my worldly life that I don't like to walk in groups or follow someone else than Jesus ...is it the same here that I have already passed by Jesus and am talking to God by myself."
Well, Christ warned us that
"I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14:6)
It's pretty simple: You *can't* talk to God by yourself. Yes, Jesus did say we would ask the Father ourselves, but not without Christ. You cannot get closer to God without Christ, because Christ is God's answer to *everything.*
And it is most definitely not the spirit of God that told you to leave your husband. Even if your husband was an unbeliever, the Apostle Paul gave strict instruction from the Holy Spirit:
"1 Corinthians 7:13And the woman which hath an husband that believeth not, and if he be pleased to dwell with her, let her not leave him.
14For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean; but now are they holy. "
And if your husband was a believer, then God would not instruct you to leave your husband:
"1 Corinthians 7:10 And unto the married I command, yet not I, but the Lord, Let not the wife depart from her husband:
11But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried or be reconciled to her husband: and let not the husband put away his wife. "
...and as such, you shouldn't be here on a Christian site, looking for a Christian man, while disobeying the Spirit that Christ gave us.
I don't say these things to condemn you, but to warn you. This is not the Spirit of God you're listening to.
How much of the scriptures have you read Eva? Please; search them yourself - I say this because I care.
I am not here for fellowship so don't feel sorry for me.
I am only heare to find an understanding husband as I know it's hard to walk away from the traditonal thinking since year 300 after Jesus when the church decided to that Jesus was God.
In the early Church was it much more people that doubt that Jesus was God but as longer times goes does the early church fade and more and more worship Jesus and that what it will be according to the scripture because the real anti-christ is to make Jesus to God when he is our Lord and teacher and for those that am like me that have God very close is Jesus between man and God for to tell us what God want to say to us.
There is more people that NOT believe that Jesus is God as Muslims believe Jesus to be a prophet and I agree to it and then do we traditional Jewish that also think that Jesus is not God.
Should all those people have so wrong ?
It was in year 325 The First Council of Nicaea was a council of Christian bishops that did an election/voted if Jesus was God or not
It was about 250 Bishops that voted what to believe in.
And it decided that the church should believe in the trinity
If not believing in this decided people was killed if they believed in something else or preached something else.
That is not my church that force people to think exactly the same.
My believe is from a free thinking and from a free spirit in me that refuse to say yes and amen against what I have experiences of.
I have never seen Jesus but I have heard God.
I should be very happy if jesus come to me and said he was God because it's hard to have another opinion but I believe in my childhoods God that is not Jesus.
"I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14:6)
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I follow this by understanding Jesus teaching. The scripture don't tell us to worship Jesus, it's tell us to understand what Jesus is talking about
and the Truth is the spirit of truth that is inside us that Jesus gave us when he shouldn't be with us anymore.
We all have Jesus inside us and if you believe that Jesus is God then you have God inside you and everyone is a god in themself then but that do you not believe in either.
I understand Jesus completely and that's why I can go further but you have stopped on an earlier level than me.
I step out from the comfortzone when you decided to stay where you are and both are ok.
And it is most definitely not the spirit of God that told you to leave your husband. Even if your husband was an unbeliever, the Apostle Paul gave strict instruction from the Holy Spirit:
I married my past husband when I didn't knew God and we can divorce if we was married before we met God...or for you Jesus
But after been saved and belong to God we can't divorce.
My husband was satanist and started to show me he took drugs and he went away with other women and come home with HIV and I divorced him for to not get HIV.
If not God had come and given me strength to walk away from him have I mybe had HIV now but I was also on my way to make suicide when my husbands Doctor told me he had HIV so if God haven't showed up I had done a suicide as he broked me down so much.
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...and as such, you shouldn't be here on a Christian site, looking for a Christian man, while disobeying the Spirit that Christ gave us.
I don't say these things to condemn you, but to warn you. This is not the Spirit of God you're listening to.
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I don't want that spirit you have with such hate and judgement in it
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How much of the scriptures have you read Eva? Please; search them yourself - I say this because I care.
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I am a ordained Pastor and I have as most people been in a meeting with eight other Pastors and they have asked me about the scripture and even if I had not study the Bible as you have did the spirit of truth, Jesus, told me the answers and I shocked them all as I had never study the Bible before God come to me in year 2000.
I preach in the churches in USA without knowing the Bible because I have faith in the promise there is in the Bible.....
" If you only open your mouth I will lay my words in your mouth " amen
Say it with me now... *spirit of the antichrist*???
1st john anyone?
What's going on here lately, first we get a baby killing dude who thinks theres life on other worlds and now we have a person denying the very deity of Jesus?
Eva, what you are saying comes through like a bad trip.
And let me say one more thing, this is a place were we come with open hearts to make families. We all come here to fix things not break them. I do not like the chaos I am getting from our last few new people. Perhaps a better screening process is needed? There are alot of people who may fall off the path if the way isnt cleared for them. We are sheep. There are hearts and souls, and kids at stake here, this is serious business and no fooling around.
This is not a *what happens in vegas stays in vegas* place.
These are real lives here, people who make hamburger helper for thier kids while they wish they had a spouse to clean the gutters or empty the back of the pick up.
All of you, every one of you, and you Eva, are special and particular in God's eyes. You have his full attention, give him yours.
You sweet people will find love, Just rest in Jesus, he will carry you to it.
I agree that way too many warning bells have gone off. I just want to say that when lucifer was cast out of heaven as the highest angel, he took with him 1/3 of the other angels (demons) to do the devils work & although the devil is so extreemly crafty in his works to lie, kill, destroy & to seperate us 1 from another as he goes to & fro across the earth to see whom he can destroy.
and speaking.