I used to believe like you. I have been both a christian and a muslim.
and fundamentalist in both for that matter!
While I questioned the hatred and the judgement of others, in both
faiths, I still held tight to many of the fairytales, mostly because I
1. Was afraid of hell
2. Afraid I might make a mistake and sin
3. would pray on my face so hard and long my sinuses hemmoraged.
What a pretty sight, eh? What a devout and faithful servant of god.
I had so many prophetic visions and dreams, that if I had a dollarI
for each one, id be rich right now! LOL they all came to pass, some
good, mostly bad ones. And then, after forsaking ALL, starving, sick,
and NOONE helped me, I was accused of being a witch!
Both in xianity AND islam, I had folks tell me I had the path of a prophet.
Well call me Jonah baby, cuz screw that! LOL
call me thomas, cuz until God or jesus or mo comes down and
talks to me face to face, I can no longer believe in this farce.
I suffered WAY TOO MUCH, sacrificed WAY TOO MUCH, lost everyone
I loved to follow these pathes, only to be left empty, sick, poverty stricken,
lonely, and in continuous pain. And still expected to tithe, do that zakat
ssshit, etc etc. It was all about "take take take" and I never got anything
in return except some really sssshitty dreams and visions lol.
Response of a man:
ALA there's life there's hope,so let this be the dawn of a new day filled with hopes and possibilities when you will have finally cast aside all your demons that have held you back from achieving your potential.
If there's a GOD, isn't it ridiculous that he needs a book to communicate with you?
Response of Bahira:
Hi sister. You have been looking for God. You didn�t find Him in Christianity. There are many people who are Christians and they all go directly to hell. Because Christianity is FAITH and not religion. It is now enough to know about God. You should KNOW Him. It means you should LOVE Him knowing that ONLY He has always loved you and moreover He loved you even before the foundation of the earth. So, the word Christianity is NOTHING. But the FAITH in God who is the Creator of the universe Jesus is EVERYTHING. Let me address to you to day:
1. By thinking that you were a Christian, you were not a Christian. Christians are those who are BORN of God. They are those who repent and abandon their sins. Test your heart now and think: were you born of God or not? Did He forgive all your sins and make you holy? If not, then you need it. Many Christians were never born of God and they cannt get to the Kingdom of Heaven says Jesus. To get to the Kingdom of Heaven we should be born of God! Solution for you: repent of all your sins, confess them to God Jesus in a conversation/prayer and abandon your sins. Then through your FAITH that Jesus is God you will be immediately forgiven and you will feel it in your heart. It will be a testimony of the Holy Spirit in your heart.
2. God of our father Abraham was NEVER in Islam. So, you need to confess Jesus your sin of idol worship too. Because worship of the idol in Islam it is an idol worship. And idol worshippers will never inherit the Kingdom of Heaven.
3. There are many false prophets and many false revelations which could be caused by demons. All revelations which you might need are already GIVEN by God in the Holy Scripture and there is NO NEED for any prophecies anymore. READ hundreds of the prophecies in the Bible. There is nothing new! Everything was said by God! If there is anything new, that it is wrong! So, all your revelations, if they were given not to build up Christian brothers, were a madness caused by demons/jinns. God would NOT make you any sufferings, because He loves you!
4. You said sister: I loved to follow these pathes, only to be left empty, sick, poverty stricken, lonely, and in continuous pain.
- But remember that we are really happy if only we are living with God�reconciled with Him and living a holy life. These symptoms listed by you clearly show that you did not live with God who is LOVE and CONFORT. You knew about Him but didn�t embrace Him. Now knowing all your sufferings, remember that He suffered much more for your sake. He died for you. No one died for you to save you from hell. Only He did it. He came to your world- hell- and until today He has been talking to you in your heart calling you to Himself. MOVE your heart toward Him! He is LOVE. Infinite love. God does not need your money, He gives you His Kingdom! He gives you EVERYTHING what He has. What does He expect from you? Love people and love God! That�s all. You said that you have never get anything in return. Right. Look what Jesus is giving you:
He gives you forgiveness of ALL your sins.
He writes your name in the Book of Life and you will never be judged for your crimes. You are free because He was judged instead of you and He died instead of you. It is the highest LOVE toward you.
You will be called God�s Inheritance.
You will be His daughter adopted by Him and no one/nothing will separate you from His LOVE.
He will share with you His WORLD/Kingdom and His bright future.
There is no need to be an advocate of demons. Because they are killing you. If you try to justify your own killers, it proves that you are a fool! Do not be fool. Rappers of children cannt be GOOD!!! They are killers and they are devouring those who do not know God. Moreover they kill such people like you who think that you are a victim of God. No. God loves you but He HATES killings of demons which steal you from the loving God�s hand. You are like a child of God who is abused/raped many times by demons and He is GOING to JUDGE them. Because you are EVERYTHING for Him and those who dare to touch His child will be punished. His LOVE toward you makes Him to be just in His Judgment and His WRATH is a righteous indignation which is going to devour rappers, killers and anyone who deceives His children. So, do not be angry because God is not going to execute you or kill you. He came to save you and take you HOME. If you will decide to stay alone and not to return to Him, then He even will not violate your choice/free will. But your decision will move your feet every day of your life to the fire prepared for your rappers. Rejecting salvation of God, you move closer to the rappers/demons. Staying with them HOW will you survive???!!! Be separated form demons/ step out of the hell of your life. Wash your hands. And God will dress you in the clothes of righteousness. He is PERFECT. He is GOOD. He is LOVE. His LOVE toward you is WRATH against those who devour you and touch you.
Who is this God who loves you? Hua Wahid/He is ONE- God Jesus! He promised to be with you always. Just decide to be with Him and get out of hell!
God said to you:
I will never leave you nor forsake you. Hebrews 13:5
"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I (God) will not forget you! (Isaiah 49:14-15 NIV)
Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10
For it is by grace you have been saved through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is a gift of GOD. Ephesians 2:8
You are all sons of GOD through faith in Christ Jesus. Galatians 3:26
We live by faith not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. 1 Corinthians 16:13
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13
"But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm. Proverbs 1:33
GOD is our refuge and strength, and ever present help in trouble. Psalms 46:1
Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I. Isaiah 58:9
"I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the LORD Almighty." 2 Corinthians 6:18
God has seen fit in His infinite mercy to show you something about yourself ; You will only serve Him IF He serves you.
You can say it is all a bunch of ssshit !
or....
you can say :
"Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, I will be joyful in God my Savior. (Hab 3:17-18)
Though He slay me, yet will I hope in Him (Job 13:15)
Don't you see you have reached the crossroads that seperate fake Christians from the real ones?
If you have read the New Testament you would know this kind of stuff has been promised you as a Christian and would not now be surprised!!!
1 We then, as workers together with Him also plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain. 2 For He says:
� In an acceptable time I have heard you,
And in the day of salvation I have helped you.�
Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.
3 We give no offense in anything, that our ministry may not be blamed. 4 But in all things we commend ourselves as ministers of God: in much patience, in tribulations, in needs, in distresses, 5 in stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors, in sleeplessness, in fastings; 6 by purity, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Spirit, by sincere love, 7 by the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armor of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, 8 by honor and dishonor, by evil report and good report; as deceivers, and yet true; 9 as unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and behold we live; as chastened, and yet not killed; 10 as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things.
Be Holy
11 O Corinthians! We have spoken openly to you, our heart is wide open. 12 You are not restricted by us, but you are restricted by your own affections. 13 Now in return for the same (I speak as to children), you also be open.
14 Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? 15 And what accord has Christ with Belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever? 16 And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For you are the temple of the living God. As God has said:
