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Broken hearted
Posted : 16 Mar, 2011 08:06 PM

One too many times. Maybe I should just give up?

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Broken hearted
Posted : 17 Mar, 2011 12:59 PM

Have you analyzed why it is so hard to find the right man in your life? What are your expectations of a relationship?

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Posted : 18 Mar, 2011 06:57 PM

To whom it may concern,

While giving up would seem like the easiest and most logical thing to do, i have come to find that giving up is almost another form or dying.No hope,no expectations,just.....lonelyness,heartbreak,monotony.As of almost two months ago now,i was engaged to be married for the first time in my life,to a 22 year old christian girl.I nyself am 27,and have had ,for the longest time,a very,very hard life,i just got released from prison after serving 3 and a half years for auto theft.Ive never had an id,a drivers license,nothing.And just now to the point that I am now ready to do what is needed to be done to get my life together.I could go on and on,but there is not enough room here for all of it.Her and I met on christiancafe.com,and fell in love with each other very quickly,She was from michigan,8 hours away from me,and she would come to see me,as I am not mobile,I loved her so much,ive never in my life loved a woman as i loved her.I was the only man that she had ever been with.she wound up moving down here after living with her parents all her life.Well,she was down here two days,an after all the wedding planning,which was set for august 5th,getting fitted for her dress,leasing the chapel for the wedding,two cabins and a chalet for the guests coming from michigan,after all these things,two days after she moved down here,i woke up and she was gone.She had gotten a job at deaconess hospital,after quitting her job at a privately held lab up in michigan,(she was a medical lab tech),and was supposed to start that next monday.....she just left.She said that it was too hard.since then her parents have changed her phone number,and her email, address,so i cannot get ahold of her.....so i dont know what to do.I still love her,i cry for her,for us.The loss of what we had.I dream of her,can smell her,hear her voice,wake up reaching for her,and the cry myself to sleep when i realize all over again that she is no longer there.But I will not give up,I cannot,not only would i be failing myself,I would be failing God and the plans that He has for my life.I hurt.....I hurt so bad....but...the hottest fire makes the hardest steel.I will go on.I would encourage you not to give up,i have reached that point in my life,more than once,and it is never worth it.I never seem to accomplish anything with it,and I have often found that it starts to effect other areas of my life as well.



Sincerely,

no expert,only advice

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Posted : 18 Mar, 2011 08:39 PM

Don't ever give up on meeting someone.Do everything to be faithful to God,and watch how things will fall into place.I will be praying for you.Have a blessed weekend.

Rosemary

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Posted : 23 Mar, 2011 11:23 PM

One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.

Posted : 11 Jan, 2011 11:49 PM



I had gotten to know a young lady on a christian dating site like this. After talking to her, because I live in bush Alaska, for a few months I went and visited her family. I really enjoyed my time with them. Her family then came and visited my parents place while I was down for the summer. Everything seemed to be going great.



I had to come back to Alaska for work and we still kept in communication. We would talk almost every day. We were starting to talk about getting engaged and later on married. Then all of the sudden I got an email from her telling me "that if I loved her that I would never to contact her, her family, or her friends ever again."



When I read those words my heart felt like it would truly break. I couldn't believe that one day we tell each other that we love each other and then the next she tells me never to contact her again. Because I live in bush Alaska I am far away from family and close friends. So I really didn't have anyone to turn to for comfort.



Then I realized that I did have someone that I could turn to that would wipe all of my tears away. I don't remember what I even prayed about. However, I remember crying out to him. He didn't really answer me. Not that I felt at the moment. Looking back I see how he was there beside me the whole time. It is just that I was looking for him to take away my pain. Instead he wanted me to learn something else. That by going through this pain he was purifying me to love him more.



Several days went by where I sunk into just existing. I was mad at her, I was mad at me, I was mad at God. Bitterness was starting to grow in heart. Then I had a chance to talk to my Dad. He pointed out how childish I was acting. He wasn't very polite in the way he said it. It shocked me. So much that I felt terrible for ever letting bitterness grow in heart.



That is when I noticed that God was standing there right beside me. I also noticed that his clothes were soaked. He had been crying so much for me that he felt my pain worse than I did. I never knew that God loved me so much that he feels our pain worse than we do.



Then I realized that I had been holding the broken pieces of my heart since that day. They had cut me because I was holding on to them so tight. I then decided that I was hurting myself more by holding on to my broken heart then just letting the Lord have them. For the past few days he had been trying to have me let him have them.



So I gave the Lord the pieces of my broken heart. Some of the pieces I had to pull out of my flesh. I had held them so tightly that they had sunk into my skin. It hurt to pull them out. But once I had given them all to the Lord he took them and started to put the pieces together. One piece at a time he started to make the pieces of my heart into something new and more beautiful. When he was finally done he gave it to me. It was wonderful. So soft and glowing. I then asked what it was. He told me that it was a vessel for him to fill his love with.



Since that day he has been showing more wonderful and amazing things. I am not saying that I am the perfect vessel. Far from it. It is just that I daily look at what he made and gave to me and it fills me with love and joy. He has also been showing me things that I was unable to learn till he had the chance to take the pieces of my heart and mold them into a vessel for his love.



He loves me more than I could ever imagine. :yay:





Note: This is a true story in that this happened to me. I didn't not see all of these things with my physical eyes but I felt them in my spirit. Also my heart wasn't a thousand pieces that cut me. However, that is what it was doing to my spirit. I tried to put my feelings and the feelings of my spirit into imaginable things.

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Posted : 3 Apr, 2011 09:33 AM

Just always remember that God is in control and what ever happen to our life he has a reason just pray and ask the guidance of our God. dont lost hope always have faith on God.

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Posted : 26 Apr, 2011 08:57 AM

I know exactly how you feel about giving up, I was married for 7 years, I was faithful, and I put all I had to give into my marriage, I tried my best to be the wife that God's Word taught me to be. But later learned it was all for nothing, because I was married to a man that wanted a good wife at home, but he himself refused to be faithful. many times I forgave him, but I couldn't live with it anymore, so the rest is history. But I have in many ways givin up, but I also know that I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone, unless that is God's plan for me.

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Posted : 2 May, 2011 08:15 AM

As long as we are breathing on this earth, we should not lose hope and don't give up when our prayers are not being answered. We have a God who knows our needs even before we pray and ask for it. We just need to have faith in Him and pray with a thankful heart.

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Posted : 10 Jun, 2011 03:26 PM

I truly believed that things happend for the right reason in life and there is always a God hands on all , still I see myself every time more lonely, getting older and bitter indeed I have a though life full with pain I found in love the straight to keep going, but as naive as it may sound he was never with me, perhaps he did at the beginning but years past and I kept waiting to be with him, to be good enought to deserve his love, to make him love me, I loved him so much with all my heart an soul, He broke my heart so many times until it was not a all piece left it took me so long to realized that he never loved me ...I wonder how to love again, how to trust?...After all I had lost, i had desperated look for love every where, I hope it will come to my life...

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Posted : 4 Jul, 2011 02:22 AM

PRAYER IS THE MASTER KEY!!!

My dear friends...

My advice is that everyone of us- '' PRAYS'' for Gods ''DIVINE DIRECTION''...It is very important to PRAY...



WATCH AND PRAY-were Christs own words to us all...



''When God says to pray, He really means it. To pray is the most commonly mentioned command in Scripture. It is mentioned more than �love your neighbor,� more than �go to church,� and more than �evangelize.� More than anything else, God calls us to pray''



remember that - JESUS STARTED WITH PRAYER AND ENDED WITH PRAYER!!!



''We should be people of great prayer. We should be prayer warriors. We should be people who use the ministry of prayer to its fullest capacity. The highest and greatest calling of Christians is the ministry of prayer''.



GOD GOVERNS THE WORLD...BUT PRAYER GOVERNS GOD...

bless u...

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