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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 11 Jan, 2011 11:49 PM

I had gotten to know a young lady on a christian dating site like this. After talking to her, because I live in bush Alaska, for a few months I went and visited her family. I really enjoyed my time with them. Her family then came and visited my parents place while I was down for the summer. Everything seemed to be going great.



I had to come back to Alaska for work and we still kept in communication. We would talk almost every day. We were starting to talk about getting engaged and later on married. Then all of the sudden I got an email from her telling me "that if I loved her that I would never to contact her, her family, or her friends ever again."



When I read those words my heart felt like it would truly break. I couldn't believe that one day we tell each other that we love each other and then the next she tells me never to contact her again. Because I live in bush Alaska I am far away from family and close friends. So I really didn't have anyone to turn to for comfort.



Then I realized that I did have someone that I could turn to that would wipe all of my tears away. I don't remember what I even prayed about. However, I remember crying out to him. He didn't really answer me. Not that I felt at the moment. Looking back I see how he was there beside me the whole time. It is just that I was looking for him to take away my pain. Instead he wanted me to learn something else. That by going through this pain he was purifying me to love him more.



Several days went by where I sunk into just existing. I was mad at her, I was mad at me, I was mad at God. Bitterness was starting to grow in heart. Then I had a chance to talk to my Dad. He pointed out how childish I was acting. He wasn't very polite in the way he said it. It shocked me. So much that I felt terrible for ever letting bitterness grow in heart.



That is when I noticed that God was standing there right beside me. I also noticed that his clothes were soaked. He had been crying so much for me that he felt my pain worse than I did. I never knew that God loved me so much that he feels our pain worse than we do.



Then I realized that I had been holding the broken pieces of my heart since that day. They had cut me because I was holding on to them so tight. I then decided that I was hurting myself more by holding on to my broken heart then just letting the Lord have them. For the past few days he had been trying to have me let him have them.



So I gave the Lord the pieces of my broken heart. Some of the pieces I had to pull out of my flesh. I had held them so tightly that they had sunk into my skin. It hurt to pull them out. But once I had given them all to the Lord he took them and started to put the pieces together. One piece at a time he started to make the pieces of my heart into something new and more beautiful. When he was finally done he gave it to me. It was wonderful. So soft and glowing. I then asked what it was. He told me that it was a vessel for him to fill his love with.



Since that day he has been showing more wonderful and amazing things. I am not saying that I am the perfect vessel. Far from it. It is just that I daily look at what he made and gave to me and it fills me with love and joy. He has also been showing me things that I was unable to learn till he had the chance to take the pieces of my heart and mold them into a vessel for his love.



He loves me more than I could ever imagine. :yay:







Note: This is a true story in that this happened to me. I didn't not see all of these things with my physical eyes but I felt them in my spirit. Also my heart wasn't a thousand pieces that cut me. However, that is what it was doing to my spirit. I tried to put my feelings and the feelings of my spirit into imaginable things.

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 13 Jan, 2011 10:17 AM

Sharing what the Lord teaches you is a great gift you give us. Thank you for taking the time to write this. Sometimes, I really need to see our Father working in others, so when the Spirit lurches in me, I feel again! He renews me in His Mercy. I think you needed to experience this for my benefit, too. Well done!

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Posted : 13 Jan, 2011 11:04 AM

Well I felt like the Lord wanted me to share it on here for others. :) I am glad that you got some encouragement out of it.

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Posted : 13 Jan, 2011 09:39 PM

Thank you for sharing your story, reading it helped me in trying to deal with my loss and pain.

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 14 Jan, 2011 01:53 AM

Good. I am glad that the Lord is using my pain to help others with their pain. Funny how the Lord sometimes works. Or maybe funny isn't the right word. Amazing is better.. :)

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 17 Jan, 2011 06:41 PM

That is when I noticed that God was standing there right beside me. I also noticed that his clothes were soaked. He had been crying so much for me that he felt my pain worse than I did. I never knew that God loved me so much that he feels our pain worse than we do....



I have to put that quote somewhere...

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 21 Jan, 2011 09:49 PM

Well I felt like God wanted to use this experience in my life to show what a loving and wonderful God he is.

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 25 Feb, 2011 11:47 PM

Yes indeed he never fails to love us even most of the time,we didnt realized how amazing his love for us.Because of the pain we've been through or going through.And now he leads me to your page to remind me again that how much he LOVED me.He feels the pain worst than i do...Thank you that you posted and shared your story here:glow: This is such a blessing for me... Praise God!

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Posted : 1 Mar, 2011 01:36 PM

It is nice to hear that other people are blessed by it. At the time I couldn't think of something worse to go through. Now I look back on it and I will feel the lose but I also feel the Love that the Lord has shown me through it all.

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Posted : 7 Mar, 2011 07:16 PM

We experience Pains and trials in our life to add colors in ones life because if not we will not run to him anymore,and we will never know how great his love for us...each of us can be a blessing to each other.



may the good Lord always guide and protect you



sister in Christ

-JAZ-

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One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Posted : 23 Mar, 2011 12:17 AM

I agree that human as we are, we stumble down and we need to deal with the painful moments in our life...Life is not a bed of roses...We all encounter sudden twists and surprises unexpectedly...Sometimes we thought everything runs smoothly but in the end, we find ourselves empty and crying..



We try to chase the rainbows and the starts but in the end we only find our hands empty...Surely God moves in mysterious ways...Only God's plan is better than our own...



Like you, I was madly-deeply in love. I thought he is already the guy that I've been looking for but I find myself betrayed and deceived...

There was one time when I planned to end my life but here comes God gave me an instrument to be strong...When I was in my room, my 3-yr old sister approached me and asked why I cried�I was saying goodbye to my half-sister (she was 3 years old that time) and I told her that she might not see me anymore because I will go to heaven but I was touched when my little sister told me that I should not die because she will be sad forever when I am gone, and while she said that, her tears fall. I was amazed when my little sister told me that way...I just can�t imagine a 3 year old child comforted me and clearly understood my pains and she has been an instrument of my strength...



From then on, I realized that relationships with stranger people will just come and go but I should not end my life when I am heartbroken or when relationship fails because life is worth fighting...�Life is Beautiful� in happy and painful times...I am lucky that the love I am getting from friends and family are the TRUE LOVE that will not surely leave me behind...



Now, I consider LOVE is like a BUTTERFLY...the more I chase it, the more it eludes me...but when I just let it fly, it will come at the least you expect:) Something magical happens in God's perfect time and plan....all we need to do is �PUSH�..Pray Until Something Happens�entrust everything in God�s glory while doing our part in God�s path�

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