Author	Thread: 'Just venting...I think.
Admin	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 7 Dec, 2010 03:54 AM I must be the biggest idiot in the world. How do I always manage to convince myself that any of these morons could ever love me the way I need to be loved ? NOT that I am unlovable...I am just a sucker for a musician and I am beginning to think that all musicians are just narcissistic players. I just do what God tells me and I follow my heart...but it always ends in disaster. So I can't understand why God keeps leading me back. What is the lesson, Lord...give up my heart's desire or keep going through this agony. I didn't think I look SO bad...but really awful responses here. Although I am trying to be patient, my life is ticking away and I want to show God that I can really do this right. I cooked, cleaned, prayed constantly...served, worked, massaged, complimented, supported and completely devoted all of my hope and faith into really trying 125% this time..just for a snide remark and a look of contempt. I just want to be a muse for someone who loves music as much as I. Someone who can play or sing and hold me close and look at me with love instead iof lust. Lord, temper me. I am giving this disappointment to you. The ball, My Lord, is now in your court. Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 7 Dec, 2010 08:30 PM So sorry to hear about this difficult time you are going through and your struggles, sister. Recently two friends said something to me (separately - at different times - they do not know each other) that got me thinking about my choices and prayers. I don't know if this will help, but I will share it in the hope that it does. My friends pointed out that I keep seeking the same kind of men.... and I keep getting my heart hurt. I was also reminded that God gave me just what I asked for. Yes, JUST what I ASKED for. So, I have changed the way I am praying for a husband. And I am leaving the rest to God. I am not sitting back passively, but even more than in the past I am waiting on Him and seeking Him. Don't stop seeking God and asking for His help in your search. He is faithful and He loves you and wants the best for you. Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 7 Dec, 2010 09:33 PM Loving a Musician is tough! They get so much attention from so many people and they find themselves in nightclubs late at night with people (women) that have been drinking and most likely they have been drinking and�? I am not saying that it is impossible but it will be difficult ( I am a Musician). It is only when they get older do they �slow� down. Of course I am generalizing, but I believe that you would agree. My prayers go out to you! Blessings God proves good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks. It's a good thing to quietly Hope, quietly Hope for help from God. Lamentations 3: 25-26 Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 9 Dec, 2010 03:52 AM You are so very right. But I have continued to gravitate over and over again toward the music. The romance part is equally important, but God has put me here all alone with all of these feelings and needs and no one that understands me and my love of song. It's like, I can't make the pieces fit together. Each time my heart breaks...I muster up the faith to convince myself to be strong...but I am just not finding anyone with love for anyone else but themselves. So YES! God is fully in control, now. UR a doll for being so sweet! Have a BiiiiiG Blessing today,Sister! Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 9 Dec, 2010 04:01 AM Archimedes: I am sorry to you and all of the other musicians out there. What I said was negative and not fair. Please except my apology. P.S. I "borrowed" the "children's definitions of love" from your profile for my bucket list. ( 'Thanks! BTW nice profile! ) Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 9 Dec, 2010 04:59 AM Bunnis, No need to apologize! Your summary of a musician is apt and true (generally). I suppose it is Human Nature. Sounds to me though that you may have a song or two in you. (a song or two...in you. Hey...there's your lyrics!) I also have a feeling that you will find that musician that "plucks" your Heart Strings and "harmonizes" with you and God. You have my prayers! Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 9 Dec, 2010 09:27 PM Something I would suggest is keeping an open mind to what God wants for you in a man. Do you think on God's priority list for your husband that He is really concerned that your husband be a musician? I understand it is something that you really want, but how important is that quality in God's eyes compared to other things? In my own experience with dating musicians: musicians are in a very competitive market where they have to do everything they can do get recognition for their work or risk going unnoticed and being unsuccessful. This mentality often overflows into the rest of their behavior, where they are so used to self-promotion that they can turn it into all that they are interested in. Also, music takes a lot of time and work away from the rest of their lives. Anyway, if you take anything away from what I said, is that God's priorities should be your priorities, both in a man and in your life. I am sorry if being with someone is your heart's desire and you are having a hard time obtaining that... I don't want to tell you to change your heart's desire, that probably cannot easily be done, but I want to encourage you to keep faith in God and knowing that He wants what is best for you and will take care of you. Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 10 Dec, 2010 04:50 PM I have always gravitated towards musicians, too, as I am musical and my last two husbands and their families were musical. Three out of my four kids are musical and most of my 10 grand-kids are or will be as they get older. So, I feel ya big time. But~I have come to the conclusion that God knows who is best for me, musical or not. Deeper things matter, but if we seek Him and righteousness, all other things will be added. by HIM. :purpleangel: Post Reply
SilverFire View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 11 Dec, 2010 09:23 PM Nah, not all musicians are hyper-competitive or ceaselessly self-promoting. Some are very laid back. Yes, I'm speaking from personal experience. Not only am I a musician, but I've known a fair number of musically-gifted people. Their attitudes and their perspectives are all over the place. You will find the go-getters, the stoners, the desperate, the laid back, the disciplined, the undisciplined, and on and on. Post Reply
i_live_in_canada View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 12 Dec, 2010 03:16 PM I am sure it is like any thing. There are all types. One of my exes is a musician. It's best to not have a type and just get to know the person for who they are. Post Reply
View Profile History	'Just venting...I think. Posted : 13 Dec, 2010 04:01 PM True story, Silver and I live~can't put everyone in the same box, ever. Post Reply