My name is Kazuma Kiryu. This is my poem story.... I have been through a lot. My heart is full of fear. I had a painful memories. I never forget. My hearts still hurt very deep inside of me. The tears wont stop. The sadness can never return to happyness. I stay into the shadow. Listen too Time after time by Cyndi Lauper. Walking at night time and come home in the morning. Trying to loose the stress. I always do that all the time. Am not afraid at to walk around at night. What do I do. Chilling at the playground. I always do this whenever it hurts.
kirito i guess u just have to give all ur worries and cares to God....
he said come unto Me all who are weary...and I will give you rest....
and He is also near to the broken-hearted and those who are crushed in spirit.....unless u surrender all your sadness and hurt to God u can never be freed from dat....talk to Him tell Him how you feel.....having a painful and hurtful experience is no joke....i understand what you feel.....
There was this man from a dating site which I frequently visit. He was a Christian of course. We had constant communication for 5 months since January 2015 till May. I accepted him and we enter in a long distance relationship. He proposed to me online and expressed that he wanted me to be his wife. He planned his travel going here and relayed to me the schedule of his departure from his country and his arrival here. He even relayed the name of the hotel where he will stay. I gave him my contact number and even my home address for him to contact me once he arrives here. He also advised that I should invite my family, church mates and friends in the hotel for he wants to meet them all and to formally proposed. I did invite all of them for a dinner.
When I went to the airport to fetch he did not show up. I waited for 3 hours but he did not arrive. I also went to the hotel which he mentioned where he will stay as I thought he might go directly there but to no avail. I cancelled the dinner and all of my friends were perplexed and was worried about me.
I checked my email to see if he sent me message. I do received the message on the expected day of his arrival here in our country. He told me that his father was rushed in the hospital. He cancelled his flight to attend to his father's needs. I understand his situation. His close friend chatted me told me that the father died but I received no email directly from him. A month after, I received again a message from his close friend that his mother died but still no message directly from him only through his close friend. I keep on sending him message almost everyday to console him, to encourage him and ask him to just send me email to give me any feedback of his whereabouts and about his conditions but to no avail. I even copied and furnished his close friend just in case he didn't received the email due to his busy schedule his close friend can convey the message but still I received no update from him even from his close friend.
I chatted one of our common friend in the site where we used to communicate but she told me that the guy that I am actually looking and asking for was really a flirt as he was flirting her even she is already married. She even advised me that if he is really serious with me, he will not let me worry like this. She advised me to just moved on and continue with my life. I was really confused and felt hanging.
Good thing that I have spiritual friends and family who are always there to support me, to encourage me and to pray for me.
As God forgave me from all of my sins, by His grace, I know I can also forgive. By his grace I forgive that guy and I even include him in my prayers, praying that he is in good condition and whatever plans God have for him, may it all be done according to His plans.
I am just really thankful to God that He never leave me nor forsake me in times like this. Thank you Lord for giving me strength and for keeping me safe. Amen.
if I were in your shoes I would really feel bad about it,,,
I pray the Lord will heal you emotionally and in all aspects of your life,,,well sometimes they say experience will teach us a lot..right and I believe God is preparing something better for each and everyone of us,,,Amen believe and cling on to His promises...
the Lord is near to the broken hearted and those who are crushed in Spirit
The wisdom is in the Word of God and you will always succeed when you are lead by the Truth.
I read your stories carefully and I came to the conclusion that you all need to take these steps: Ask the Holy Spirit to help you forgive people that hurt you, or wronged you.
I know it is not easy, but with God's help it is possible and it is such a relief. It is a process, but you need it in order to get rid of all negative emotions like; anger, fear, guilt, bitterness, resentment, and unforgiveness.
When we make a decision to forgive, we break the chains of bondage and we are free to carry on to a better future.
Forgiveness opens the door to freedom.
All people need to forgive.
Another point related to that is: spiritual immaturity.
That is the result of lack of love and dignity.
If you have not been loved and have not been given support as a child, then you have negative feelings that you need to get rid of.
Ask the Lord to show you the dark emotions that you need to change in yourself.
When I learned how precious I was to the Lord, it changed my life radically.
Do you realize how valuable you are?
I suppose you don't. The Word of God tells us that we are infinitely valuable because God bought us with the most valuable thing in the universe: The Blood of Jesus.
And that's how valuable we are.
When you come to realize this truth, you can love yourself more and appreciate yourself, then you can built your life on the Rock.
Loving God, loving yourself, you will be able to share that love with others and the right person will show up for you.
Do not be sad and do not fear because if God tells us that we have to listen to Him. He takes care of everything.
You can go to the website of Derek Prince Ministries USA and listen to the sermons on deliverance and you will benefit from the Word of God.
