Author	Thread: My Heart Was Shattered
Admin	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 22 Nov, 2008 06:42 PM The day the man (who I loved more than life itself) ended, I cried for the next 6 months. I prayed each night with the rosary wrapped around my wrist to help me to go on. I was unable to feel anything but sadness.I didn't think it was possible for anyone to cry that much. My heart was shattered. I could not find comfort anywhere. My soul, spirit and faith almost destroyed. I don't remember much other than the pain. I dont remember work or daily chores or anything other than complete emptiness and sadness. Each day I would stop at the coffee shop drive through and then drive to the cemetary "Glen Oaks Memorial". I would sit and cry and write for hours. I even wrote how i felt closer to the dead than the living. I remember the day there was a burial and the procession was right where i usually parked my car to write and cry. I couldn't go there so i drove around to the other side and stopped. For the first time in 6 months i was confused and no tears fell from my eyes. I looked ahead at the tomb stone which read June 24, 1959 -May 20 1980. The young man's name was Peter. It may not mean anything to you, it did to me. I was born on the exact day and year as this young man. It didn't take a second for me to get the message. It was as though from heaven Peter was tapping me on the shoulder and telling me to "Live". He could not anymore. I am alive. I only went back to the Cemetary once and that was just to say thanks. Post Reply
erykah View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 2 Feb, 2009 06:54 AM it didnt take long... as i was walking down that road called life, moving out at 16.5 and working 2 jobs, praying God.. stay with me... at 17.5 finding a man who was soon becoming the head of my home, head of me and the children we would have. I thanked him (God), he gave me a gift, of endurance, peace, strength, wisdom, understganding, compassion. in this road, at an early i age i learned about abuse, mental physical, emotional, and tough love. i carried that into my married relationship as well, i gave my head of home power, because he was head of home. he taught me to think for him, to work for him, to endure and smile thru anything, to become numb, but not cold. i could relate to anyone yet talk to noone. i could reach for those hurting because i had been there. i walked the road that taught me not to be angry, or negative, because for each strike - verbally, or physically i became stronger in God. bent on not failing i endured what i could for 22 years. a gift from God, to love unconditionally. This I know how to do first hand. and show others the same. thru each persons stories, we learn to live. we learn to be kind and understand its not what we see. its whats we dont see. words can make or break a person, and cut soo deep that it cant heal unless GODS given the opportunity and sometimes that comes thru secret angels, the human flesh and bone. I have been reading different posts, adn this one touched my heart. I have felt throughout teh eyars every emotion imaginable, and always fall back to what i know. GOD LOVES ME. and my walk is always for a reason. what fires I may walk thru is to help someone else out of one similar. GOd Bless you all... truely. *E* Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 5 Feb, 2009 01:31 AM Hello Sheriffjohnson and thank you for taking the time to re-read my words and story. It meant a lot to me that you took the time to understand my heart. M :angel: Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 5 Feb, 2009 01:46 AM Erykah, thank you for taking the time to read my post and for sharing your story of struggle and faith. You certainly are one of God's miracles. I will keep you in my prayers. I thank you once again for all you have endured so that you may share your strength and support with those still struggling. God has His arms around you tight. You are safe now! This is your reward , and all because you believed and put your faith in Him... Enjoy the beauty in life my sister, God has created this for you. God bless you, your sister in Christ, M :angel: Post Reply
KathyD View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 5 Feb, 2009 02:48 PM You said that you held onto your rosary and prayed; I used to be part of the Catholic church and when I was saved 12 years ago, the Lord showed me a different path. I have been a member of a very small full gospel church for just over a year now and I have grown tremendously in my relationship with Christ since then. Have you accepted Jesus into your heart? Are you born again? Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 8 Feb, 2009 07:56 AM Kathy D. Yes, I have accepted "Christ" into my life and I am born again. Sept. 14, 1996 Thank you for your interest. I am a Catholic and proud of the fact. Christians are made up of many denominations. You know the funny thing, God doesn't mind, as long as one believes in "Him". I believe that there are those who have religion and those who have God. I prefer to have God! Your sister in Christ, M:angel: Post Reply
roluve View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 11 Feb, 2009 03:58 PM thanks God for faith and hope.He gives us a new opportunity every day to begin again. Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 11 Feb, 2009 04:15 PM Roluve thank you for your insprirational words. You are one of God's gentle ones. I sense your kindness and compassion. God bless you, your sister in Christ, M :angel: Post Reply
Juvie View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 28 Feb, 2009 09:36 PM Grief ~^~ My fear is over, and deepest sorrow begins, and I tread heavily in hollow desolate places. I am below even the aching of my soul. My tears are dried up, although they are not finished. I cannot even begin to speak my grieving. My lips are sealed. My burden knows no end. I am done, and I wait for my redemption. There surely is reward for bowing down. But as I walk on, I cannot realize it, for my bones, even my bones, have melted. I am forsaken. ~^~ � 1989 By Juvie "Oh that my grief were throughly weighed, and my calamity laid in the balances together! For now it would be heavier than the sand of the sea: therefore my words are swallowed up." Job 6:2,3 KJV //// Job and I are intimate friends from way back... Blessings! :0) Juvie Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 5 Mar, 2009 06:46 AM Juvie, what a beautiful, heartfelt and emotional poem. More than words. A difficult and tender time., yet you shared that part of you. I thank you... I appreciate you. May God bless you always and keep you in "His" care. Sincerly, your sister in Christ, M :angel: Post Reply
View Profile History	My Heart Was Shattered Posted : 8 Mar, 2009 04:27 PM Because you believe, you receive the great gift of love and assurance, diirectly from God Himself, and as a bonus, " He" throws in an angel, for free, it's called, "Extra protection insurance"... Feel confident to know "He" is always looking out for you. Isn't God the Greatest!!!! From my heart to yours, Your sister in Christ, M :angel: Post Reply

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