Author	Thread: One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did.
Admin	One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did. Posted : 11 Jan, 2011 11:49 PM I had gotten to know a young lady on a christian dating site like this. After talking to her, because I live in bush Alaska, for a few months I went and visited her family. I really enjoyed my time with them. Her family then came and visited my parents place while I was down for the summer. Everything seemed to be going great. I had to come back to Alaska for work and we still kept in communication. We would talk almost every day. We were starting to talk about getting engaged and later on married. Then all of the sudden I got an email from her telling me "that if I loved her that I would never to contact her, her family, or her friends ever again." When I read those words my heart felt like it would truly break. I couldn't believe that one day we tell each other that we love each other and then the next she tells me never to contact her again. Because I live in bush Alaska I am far away from family and close friends. So I really didn't have anyone to turn to for comfort. Then I realized that I did have someone that I could turn to that would wipe all of my tears away. I don't remember what I even prayed about. However, I remember crying out to him. He didn't really answer me. Not that I felt at the moment. Looking back I see how he was there beside me the whole time. It is just that I was looking for him to take away my pain. Instead he wanted me to learn something else. That by going through this pain he was purifying me to love him more. Several days went by where I sunk into just existing. I was mad at her, I was mad at me, I was mad at God. Bitterness was starting to grow in heart. Then I had a chance to talk to my Dad. He pointed out how childish I was acting. He wasn't very polite in the way he said it. It shocked me. So much that I felt terrible for ever letting bitterness grow in heart. That is when I noticed that God was standing there right beside me. I also noticed that his clothes were soaked. He had been crying so much for me that he felt my pain worse than I did. I never knew that God loved me so much that he feels our pain worse than we do. Then I realized that I had been holding the broken pieces of my heart since that day. They had cut me because I was holding on to them so tight. I then decided that I was hurting myself more by holding on to my broken heart then just letting the Lord have them. For the past few days he had been trying to have me let him have them. So I gave the Lord the pieces of my broken heart. Some of the pieces I had to pull out of my flesh. I had held them so tightly that they had sunk into my skin. It hurt to pull them out. But once I had given them all to the Lord he took them and started to put the pieces together. One piece at a time he started to make the pieces of my heart into something new and more beautiful. When he was finally done he gave it to me. It was wonderful. So soft and glowing. I then asked what it was. He told me that it was a vessel for him to fill his love with. Since that day he has been showing more wonderful and amazing things. I am not saying that I am the perfect vessel. Far from it. It is just that I daily look at what he made and gave to me and it fills me with love and joy. He has also been showing me things that I was unable to learn till he had the chance to take the pieces of my heart and mold them into a vessel for his love. He loves me more than I could ever imagine. :yay: Note: This is a true story in that this happened to me. I didn't not see all of these things with my physical eyes but I felt them in my spirit. Also my heart wasn't a thousand pieces that cut me. However, that is what it was doing to my spirit. I tried to put my feelings and the feelings of my spirit into imaginable things. Post Reply
View Profile History	One of the worst days in my life and yet it was amazing what the Lord did. Posted : 23 Mar, 2011 11:26 PM It is wonderful to hear about how the Lord is refining those that are his. I never grow tired of hearing about how the Lord brought someone through difficult times and made something beautiful come of it. Praise the Lord for all that he has done for each and every one of us. Post Reply

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