Sorry but I owe all you girls and guys an apology. I'm very sorry. Pray you can find it in ur hearts to forgive me if not I understand.
It was never my friend but myself seeking an anonymous sperm donor. I wanted to see why people are against this so much. Don't feel obligated to try to talk me out of it my mind is made up.
The procedure is affordable I found out only bout 500$. I still will be seeking a Godly husband before during and after pregnancy if the Good Lord has mercy on me and let's me get pregnant.
If a man doesn't want me and my potential baby then it's his loss. I feel pretty strong about after I have my baby I'll find a Godly man to father my baby. There are many men who step to the plate and are more than willing to father babies that aren't biological this kind of man with this kind of character will steal my heart away. I just know it. I feel strongly that if it's God's will I'll get pregnant if not I won't. I won't have any regrets as long as I at least try once.
I feel with every breath in me that I'm making the right choice and it's now or never. I will never allow my baby years to pass me by and be 50 single motherless with regrets. That's not how I operate. I've always went after what I want and don't let anyone or anything stop me outside of God.
Just wanted you all to know the truth.
God bless all you beautiful people who shared ur time regarding my e-mail's on this subject.
:peace::peace: many people go trough a mid life crisis.When my wife left me this summer and I am now single again do you think that I questioned everything.When I 1st came on this site I had a few disagreements with members.It happens.
Sarah, Abrahams wife had a mid life crisis.She was getting old.
She saw her time going by. She picked her slave to have a son.
Then she regreted the error.Afterwards, she had to see the child everyday.Will you hae regrets afterwards????????
That is what I ask you.
Wait on god.You are going through a mid life crisis.Many of us do.
And not one among us has stood in agreement with you on this Kimberly, and it is not because we don't care, because we very much do. It is the stubbornness of our own ways that ALWAYS gets us into the most trouble. I think all on this forum will agree with that statement.
If you truly believe in an Almighty God that can do ALL THINGS, then give Him a chance to BE God, and don't play God for Him, Kimberly. When we believe our way is The Way, that is a great deception of pride meant to do what satan does best, deceive, kill, and destroy, whether it is our life or another (your child to be). Ishmael is a perfect example. See how he suffered for being the less loved child? The eldest should inherit the first and finest. He inherited a waste land with no home. This happens all the time today to children of divorce who have parents that remarry to have children with their new beloved. Both parents become enamored with their new child, the product of their love and they become the "other" child.
I am sure Ishmael was beloved on the day he was born. Look how very WANTED he was and how long they had WAITED for him. And he ended up exiled in the dessert because they could not stand to look at him or his mother, despite the fact they arranged this because they WANTED this child so VERY MUCH. They WAITED for this child so VERY LONG, and in the end, he was despised. The only way it could have ended worse for him would have been if his mother had remarried and had children with a beloved husband who initially accepted her child and then later despised him after his own children were born, especially if Hagar favored her new children who could do no wrong in the eyes of their father beside a child not his that he cared for but held no true bond with.
Ishmael was not brought in to the world to be despised. HE was brought into the world to fulfill God's promise because they did not trust God to BE God and fulfill the promise He put in their hearts. God does not need us to force His promises to come to be. You cannot force the blessing of God, for it turns into a curse of unforeseen consequences.
Kimberly, we truly do care so much about you. I often think our biggest mistakes are made when we become impatient and do not wait upon the Lord. Please do not close your eyes to the wise counsel of your friends.
Thankx for the new comments haven't had a chance to thank yet. My friends, family and some strangers support me on this and thats who matters most since my family and friends really know me and how long I've been waiting for a baby. Was never expecting any of you to support this. I was trying to find out why ur against it now I know. I also wanted see how I could defend it to others who opposed it. Ur on one side of the line I'm on the other not everyone believes the same and is going to agree on the same thing.
I do consider ya all friends and on this matter we will agree to disagree.
God's provided me a pretty blessed life. I'm happy in all aspects of my life thus far other than not having a baby or a husband and have faith that this outcome will change to the favorable real soon.
No ones playing God here. I find that pretty lame considering all the things that I could throw back at you that you play God with (we all have) if you
consider this procedure playing God...really.... or u just trying to find something interesting to write.???. In fact that
will most likely be my next post....heeeheee. Only
God can do his work no one can be him or play him. Don't u think he has some pretty big shoes to fill I wouldn't want all his responsibility.
If he doesn't want me to have a baby and says no then that's the only way I won't get pregnant. Ludicrous to think a mere man or woman can play God.
I'm so excited, overjoyed at peace that I very well may have a baby soon. I cant believe that God can use my body to create a precious live baby how amazing is that? Nothing in this world is more amazing than that. I can't wait for this joyous day!
Thankx for reading my posts even if you didn't agree with them the feelings mutual...heehee. I'm an Irish gal and once the yung mind is made up there is no changing. Why would I even think of changing my mind for a mere second and miss out on the best thing that will ever happen to me in my lifetime having my very own baby hand delivered by God.
Gbu
Kimberly:-)
I don't want a man who's divorced since I've never been married but once I have a baby I will change my profile that if he has kids or doesn't have kids
would still be interested. I feel it's only fair if he's willing to help my baby I want to help raise his baby.
I pray that all goes well with you both procedurally -- spirtually and mentally. I also pray that God's will be done. Nothing happens in this world without God signing off on it. He may not like it but he will either allow it or not. If God does allow it to happen I am sure that He will find someway of good coming from it.
I will pray very hard for you Kimberly. Please keep us up to date on what is happening to you? Please...
Kimberly, I know you do not believe that I could know anything about your walk or the path you are choosing, and I know there is no way to change your mind. I truly wish there was, for even if this is the blessing you seek, the door is so wide open for Satan to come against you. My walk as a divorced mother of a child has more than prepared me to see into a future you look at through the stained glass of hope. It is my wish for you that we are all wrong, but I do wish to thank you for your struggle in this has taught me something in my own life.
Right now I am seeking wise counsel on a big change in my life, and the Lord has sent me wise counsel, yet I too, am impatient. I have decide to dwell not upon making things happen right now, and have opted to wait upon the wise counsel, which might force the deal to fall through, but if it falls through, then God has other plans for me, for I know I asked for wise counsel, and He did provide it, so it is important for me to trust in it.
I do not think I would have noticed this restlessness within me without your struggles. I forgive you for your words that I do not comprehend from where I am, for it is like you hear not my words, nor speak the same language for what I see in Christ and what you see in Christ, though similar, is not the same. I do hope that you and this child you insist upon will be happy and healthy, especially healthy, for I cannot imagine how difficult that walk will become if there are complications. Put this child first above yourself for they deserve a wonderful childhood that that is not easy, not even with two parents, and there are no guarantee that the husband you seek will come along or if they do when that will be. Pray for strength, my sister for parents shed many tears, and a few of them are joy. The first time I cried for her was when I took my baby to the ER when she was sick. There will be moments of fears, moments of joy, moments of heartache when they make choices or say things that break your heart, but if you love them enough and shelter them not from the world, but teach them to live in it but not of it, the path will be difficult, but not impossible. I see many times when the Lord gave me exactly what I wanted, the the road was tough. Things like that make or break you. I pray it makes you stronger, for many times along the way you will fall, and feel broken.
I do wish you the best and forgive your harsh words.
I was apologizing for keeping the truth from you about it being my friend when was really me wanting the Anonymous Sperm Donor.
So now I'm confused you stated in ur post that you knew it was me all along. So why are you forgiving me for my harsh words. I don't feel I've ever used harsh words with you or on this forum.
Anything I've posted on this forum is how I honestly believe I stand behind what I believe and that's one thing I'm not sorry for.
If I've hurt you in anyway with by beliefs then sorry that....that hurts you that was never my intent, but I still stand for what I believe in.
If you ever want another strong Christian sister to talk to about any of ur struggles I'm here for you. We're both going thru challenges it seems but Know that Jesus will carry us thru this treacherous pathway on the line we're walking for Jesus.. I've learned something too from you and some of the loyal forum guys like Archie and Ol Cattle and when first came to this forum kinda felt like Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz...LOL...heeehee. We sometimes will not walk the same line for Jesus some of us will take different routes on that line and still get to Jesus at the end. Jesus is the finish line as long as we keep our sites on him then we won't get lost. If anyone on here is reading this now and if Jesus isn't ur finish line then ur heading into one big dead end and Satan's hiding behind the dead end sign. I pray for anyone lost now that God touches their heart and bring them back to the finish line with all sites on Jesus.
And as long as we're on the Wizard of Oz them just follow the yellow brick road and at the end ul find the best wizard of all Jesus Christ himself.
Tarasye...yes.. I can read between the lines too and can see that you have some struggles and decions ur having to deal with. I'm here for you if you wanted to bounce some things off of me I will never judge you personally but will give you my honest opinion. I might be able to see things from a different persoective.
We are here to build each other up not nitpick and tear each other down thats what Christians are called to do to serve each other.
I care for you my sister and pray for nothing but blessings for you.
Sorry forgot to type in David his comments touched me most and brought tears to my eyes cuz he is an example of what a true Christian is. He speaks out of love not judging. But he also stands behind his beliefs.
So David3*3 would be the Lion cuz he's so warm and furry and very Courageous, Ole Cattle would be the Scarecrow and Archie would be the Tinman and I would be no other than Dorothy. Who would play my Toto any volunteers???? Too funny.
question? why would you have a baby and say that you do not want somebody who is divorced. That is confusing.You are looking for perfection and can not find it.So,in your mind you are going to fix it your way.I know that I can never find a perfect woman as all of us are not perfect.Lady, anti- marriage attitude concerns me.You get married to love somebody for who they are.
At my age it is hard to find a woman who has never been married. am responding to a comment you said about divorce.
I had wrote you once and now understand why I got no response.
So, to fix your problem you are going to have a baby.Sperm donar?
What if the donar is divorced ? Does this mean you change the rules to have this baby? At one time in history having a baby outside of marriage was sin.I never knew it changed.
Does 2 wrongs make a right? So, you will not date a divorced man and it is hard to find single unmarried men.
Your comment on divorce told me alot. Children are to come after marriage.
When I lost my job in May my wife said no job, no marriage. So,
yes I am a bit ticked.Why would you not want a divorced man.
I have no children and do not donate my sperm to have a kid.
